All the way home from work yesterday, I smiled. The day was ordinary in terms of my tasks, but I just felt really good. This wasn't the manic euphoria either--it was serenity. Probably because of my good breakfast, my veggie burrito lunch, a good night's sleep, and high productivity early in the morning. That is a really good combination. Also, I had "Birthday" by Katy Perry stuck in my head all day, so I put that on when I got into my car, and how can you not smile with that on? I will have to listen to it again today!
I am content with the present and really looking forward to the future. My heart is full of happiness in this moment. Plus, texting my boyfriend about our future together is really exciting! Anticipation is so powerful.
This may be the best month of my life. When I was visiting my family at Easter, my grandma asked me how I had been. I thought about it, and I said, honestly, "I'm actually the happiest I've ever been in my entire life."
That's not to say that I don't have my mood swings, that I don't get upset. I do. I definitely do. But when I zoom out and think about my job, being in school, my little apartment with my two kitties, and my man, I'm like wow. I'm a lucky lady.
It makes me think of the last line of Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory (the movie). Charlie, do you know what happened to the boy who suddenly got everything he ever wanted? ... He lived happily ever after.
I would love to end this post on that note, because I'm an ultra-romantic (duh), but I also don't want anyone to think that I'm silly enough to believe in "happily ever after" as a result of getting what you want at a certain age. I think "happily ever after" is continual work. Sometimes it's really hard to remember gratitude or forgiveness when things are going wrong all over the place. Still, I think it can be done. And I plan to do it.
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